Tired/Frustration

I have been working on some homework now for about four hours, and I think it is time to take a break. This always happens when I want to get more accomplished, but my brain just doesn't work.

For example, there is a box and I can't hear inside the box, smell anything happening in the box or see in the box. I ask myself, what is going on in the box? As a matter of fact I don't even know what the box is or the shape of the box. There is no movement, that I know of, but there is just a box sitting somewhere. The thing that might just be even stranger is what if the box appeard right in front of my as I am typing? Ok, I not only find the box, but I open the box and there is a dead cat inside the box. Remember that I didn't even know where the box was in the first place, and I couldn't give any characteristics of the box or what was happening with the box. Did I kill the cat by opening the box or was the cat already dead before opening the box?

These are the questions of "quantum mechanics" that I am not able to answer. I have been working on similar problems for the past eight days that have just kept me from updating this blog, but now is the time to break from the entraped questions that I am trying to solve, but keep me running in circles.

Some of the questions are just a matter of computer difficulty. The whole Microsoft system is totally messed up in the world of Josh. I guess I could understand my frustration more if I would devote my life to the computer language, but that is why I have a Chad (not a pregnant-chad).

I will say that this is good to challenge myself in many aspects of life; intellectual, spiritual, physical and social challenges are the obsticles that come to mind. As one would say, and normally I would give a T.R. quote, "Do first things first and second things not at all". But, today since I am tired and typing with six fingers because the other four are still numb from my 300 mile bike ride in 3 days, "303" I will share a piece of scripture that has me thinking. Hosea chapter one gives insight into history of or more emphasis on how Israel no matter how bad it was continued to disobey God. As many pick out verses from the New Testament speaking of the change in God's Deuternomical Theology, the Old Testament shows the choice that we have to make. Everything might be given to a child while he is young and knows not the difference between right and wrong (this is a parallel with Adam and Eve), but when the child is growing up and learning the difference between "good and evil" (Adam and Eve) there are choices now for the "adult" or "teenager" to make. The easy way, and I don't know if I can say this, but would be to choose the life of Judah. I see Judah as living with obedience. I see Israel continuing the life that leads to "No Mercy". Which part of this do stick or "box" needs to be opened and examined?