Doubt

People doubt all the time the potential that I have. I have doubted many times the abilities that I have. I notice sometimes that I give into the struggle of keeping focused, but then remember "Life without suffering...would be a form of death. Life depends in some mysterious way on the struggle to be." -D. Hall

(My adviser told me I would fail. Who needs someone to lean on in college and someone that is supposed to help encourage you tell you "you are no good"? She is no longer my adviser.)


Individuals always say, "How do I get a shot at being a leader, and using my talents when I have to start at the bottom"? Well my answer to that is "everyone" not just a couple people, but "Everyone wants to play in the tournament. The rules are straightforward; you must start at the bottom to have a shot at the top."

So, how do I need to set my agenda to keep disappointing the doubters, or having the shot at the top? Putting yourself at risk and work long demanding hours will show what type of person you are. If you want to be competitive in a field that has a fortune to be earned you will have to take risk you will have to work 11 times harder than you are right now. But let me say, choosing status over results will lead to failure, choosing popularity over accountability will lead to failure, choosing certainty over clarity will lead to failure, choosing harmony over productive conflict will lead to failure, and choosing invulnerability over trust will lead to failure. These are not my full 100% thoughts, but this is what I believe and will try to achieve.

Yet I will have to suffer, put up with peoples doubt, start at the bottom, put in long hours, try and choose what is right, loose friends, fall down, retake a class and be far from those I love, the fight is well worth it even if there is doubt!

Psalm 36:9